Comfortable Loneliness
A cold little heart.
Thank you, Josh
I imagined myself crazy For my aversion to Intimate human contact A cold little heart Beating in my ribcage I confuse myself with Deep compassion from A distant dividing chasm Heart-wrenching empathy Behind an unbreachable wall I crave intimacy and love But reject relationships Fiercely protective of My sacred personal space A breathing contradiction An emotional nomad Freedom always beckoning A foreigner in the Land of commitment Voyage into self-imposed exile Loneliness is a mental state Never features in solitude Swept away in a swirling crowd Drowning in aloneness Unadulterated, mental torture An acknowledged gypsy A solitary witch Would have been burned On ancient stakes For worshipping nature
Bliss perfectly describes it, with a hint of yearning. 💞💞💞
I loved this but it did make me sad. I think mostly bc I just parted ways with my wonderful male friend who is just like this. And I love him for it. In fact, it's why I'm in love with him. He is always whole, needing no relationship. But that's also why I parted from him. I am too tender for his autonomy and I wanted more than he can ever give. I am not strong enough to be non-attached yet. But I still love him. After some time passes, I will be able to be just his friend, without this longing for more. So, my dear Rea, you are not the only solitary traveler on this globe. Thank you for this perspective