The letter

This is the letter I referred to in my post "Reach out"

Hello.

First at all I want to say that I am so sorry for your Loss,to all and every single one of you,I sorry,I really do.

I read all and every single one of your experiences and I can say that not matter how long ago it happened, you will always be united and be one with the ones that are not longer with us.

I am 22 years old, and for a long time I've been depressed and hiding my real feelings because of fear. I've been depressed for many years but never as deep as I recently went through.

One week ago,I reached the bottom of my depression, I felt alone,confused, sad,crying all day long in my locked room,I was having very bad thoughts,I felt worthless, I felt like a waste of space,like I was giving my family problems they can't deal with.
I reached the darkest moment in my live and I was being suicidal.

On that exact moment,with tears in my eyes and shaking, I started to search for "ways" to do it ,for people's experiences about it. I was decided to do it.

I found this page,I read your experiences and they affected me,but, I was so depressed that in that moment I didn't care about nobody.
I took a rope and got inside my closet, I was a step away to end with everything. I was there,I was doing it, with all the pain,suffering that I cried so hard that my chest hurt;suddenly ,after having read your experiences,all and every single one of them, they were inside my head,repeating over and over again the pain I will cause to my loved ones,seeing how it will affect them,I remember the way you are going through with this horrible experience.
Your experiences on this page,made realize how wrong I was and that I should do something instead going there.

Thank God,I found this page ,thank God,your stories stayed in my head and helped me so much.

What I'm trying to say is that ,your experiences on this page saved my life thank God. You helped me how you can't even imagine. After being a step away from doing it ,days after I talked with my mother and she was there for me,and she supported me so much, I am going through this depression with help and is way easier.

Finally, I want to say that I feel so bad for you having lived that,and that you are in my prayers, you and your loved ones who are not longer with us. I pray for all the people who went through this and is going right now.
I hope you can find peace in your heart,and that doesn't mean forgetting, that mean be in perfect union with God.
It is very important to have a common union With your children,with what they're going through and be there for each other with the hand and help from God.

I really want to thank all and every single one of you, you through your stories, through your loved ones memories.

Thank God I'm here ,with my mom's love and support. I want to say that you have saved one live in a different part of the world.

Thanks. Love.
Erich