Will I Drown Today?
Nobody know...
The bloody tongue of depression
licking at my heels,
As I try to slip away unnoticed
But it saw my pain, and it pounced
Without any fucking mercy
Dragging me down into a maelstrom
Drowning me with hopelessness
I fight against it with all my might
Its ruthless claws hold fast
I am lost in its madness
Rolling myself into a little ball
to protect my heart from bleeding
All over my pristine sheets
Where is my home?
I have no home
Flung by the maelstrom of life
Like a ragdoll of misfortune
Where do I belong?
Nowhere it seems
The abyss looms
Darkness calls longingly
Floating like a ghost
From one place to the next
Perhaps I died already
But haven't realised it
I'm over life's lessons
How much longer should I hang on?
I’m drowning in tears
Is this what I signed up for?
I must have been crazy
I feel death's icy cold breath
Against the back of my neck
Come, take my hand
Is peace too much to ask for?
Death promises release
Free from this earthly storm
This fatalistic human experience
Hanging on by a thread
Slowly breaking
Will I fall today?
I say not today.
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The road you have walked has been long, made your feet weary, your heart heavy, and drawn you down, but you are still here.
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I say not today.
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The burden you have carried has bent your back, almost to breaking, worn you down, but you are still standing.
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I say not today.
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Those claws that tried to grasp can hold no grip, for you threw them off with every step you took, that could not hold you fast, you kept moving.
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I say not today.
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Death has no claim on you; you are still full of life, living yet to be done, so Death the receiver of all must wait its turn, and wait a while yet, for you all you have been through have armored you, made you stronger, and built you up, even though you cannot see it in the mirror.
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So, I say - not today.
One of the best poems on this subject I have ever read.
The answer to your question? No you won’t, you have too much still to do.