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Nancy Hesting's avatar

You are a survivor, not a victim. So glad you found peace.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Nancy. I appreciate your words.

Emma Steel's avatar

It warms me that you have found a peace for something no one should have to go through.

💜

Rea de Miranda's avatar

I had to, or go insane. Thank you, Emma! 🤍

Emma Steel's avatar

A victim is someone who suffers a great wrong, and lets it sit.

You are not that.

You suffered a great wrong, and worked it through, and came out the other side, scars and all - you are a surviver.

And I know that not everyone has that chance, that is not their fault...they don't need to be victimized twice.

There is no justice, there is no reconciliation, no turn the other cheek for those who have suffered, only something buried deep down that we shine a light on to steal its power, and learn to live with.

Love you, Rea.

❤️

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Love you, Emma. ❤️

Rea de Miranda's avatar

We learn to live with it. Thank you. ❤️❤️

Moorea Maguire's avatar

"shame is a lie someone told you about yourself." Brilliant. So happy for you for the peace you now feel, Rea.

I'm struggling with the same thing except that what my dad did to me wasn't sexual. When you visited your mother, what did she say to you? Mine was half in denial, half "How can we move forward if you keep dwelling in the past?" Zero remorse.

I don't know how to have a relationship with someone who feels nothing for causing me so much harm.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

I forgave her for blaming me for his actions. For years I believed her lies. An innocent child can't carry that burden. We don't need to feel shame or guilt, Moorea. They did wrong. Sending love and peace.

Moorea Maguire's avatar

Thanks, Rea, I’m sending you love and peace too. I’m so glad you no longer believe her lies.

What is the current status of your relationship? I find it impossible to carry on an authentic relationship with a parent who has no remorse.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

She's more like an aunt I see now and then. I feel sorry for her now. It could've been so different.

Moorea Maguire's avatar

That makes sense.

Lisa Jordan's avatar

Shame is astoundingly toxic. I’m glad for your peace. Sending you so much love. ❤️

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Lisa. Love right back at you. ❤️

AsukaHotaru's avatar

The part where you visited your mother and forgave her hit me so hard... that is such a huge thing to carry into one room...

Rea de Miranda's avatar

It was overwhelming, Asuka. Thank you my friend.

Samira Wyld's avatar

This hits hard. I kept this hideous secret from the world for 8 years. 8 years of my childhood filled with shame for something that was not my fault and when I finally told my mother at 16, she shunned me. I'm so glad you have found peace with it, as I have too! Thank you so much for sharing this. It's these kind of experiences that teaches us resilience and a quiet power that no one can take from us again. Much love 🖤

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Our mothers failed in their duty to protect us and helping us through it. We survived without them. Sending love and peace, Samira.

Samira Wyld's avatar

Thank you, lovely. Yes our mothers failed to protect us. May mine rest in peace 🖤

Nancy Stordahl's avatar

Hi Rea,

You are a victor, a survivor indeed. I'm so glad you decided to share your story and in dong so have found a supportive community. Sharing our stories is a powerful thing. Thank you for sharing yours.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Nancy. You are right, we heal while supporting each other. ❤️

Nancy Stordahl's avatar

Absolutely.

Ink and Light by Nat Hale's avatar

This is incredibly brave. Moving from silence, not even naming it in therapy, to speaking it publicly is no small thing. The line about shame being a lie someone told you about yourself is powerful and true. It shifts the weight back where it belongs.

I’m also struck by how community made this possible. Other women spoke, and you found your voice. Now yours will do the same for someone else. The forgiveness feels hard won, not neat or sentimental, but freeing. Not a victim, but a victor. That reclamation of yourself is the real triumph.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

When I first read their accounts I cringed with shame. But, it's the only way to come to terms with it. It was eating away at me, and I'm sure my perpetrators forgot all about it.

One of my worries was that my family and friends would read my post. But, it was time they knew about the depravity. My cousin went through the same and he killed himself. I refuse to give them power over me.

Thank you for reaching out to me, Nat. ❤️❤️

Ink and Light by Nat Hale's avatar

You have nothing to be ashamed of

Ink and Light by Nat Hale's avatar

We all find our way as best we can. So glad we walk togeather sometimes

Rea de Miranda's avatar

I'm also glad about that. 🤗

Thomas Lloyd Qualls's avatar

So brave.

And yes, forgiveness is not for others, it is for us!

So we can be free, like you say.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you for saying that, Thomas. We free ourselves.

Jen Reich's avatar

You are, and you inspire with your words. Hugs.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Jen.

Stephanie C. Bell's avatar

You are extraordinary Rea. <3 So grateful you survived with such clear sight! Thank you for loving and protecting the precious little girl you were, when nobody else did. I'm hugging her (you) from afar!!!!!

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Stephanie. Hugging you right back.

Debra Martin's avatar

Reaching the point of forgiveness is allowing yourself to set down the baggage of their transgressions. One doesn't forget, it does not erase, it opens light to the darkness.

My mom said she thought she knew but how could she accuse him. In her era, and within the abuses of her own life of being called crazy, she feared and doubted her own instincts.

Much love ❤️ my friend.

Rea de Miranda's avatar

It was easier swept under the rug, than facing it. Thank you, Debra. Hugs

Esther Stanway-Williams's avatar

No, you are not a victim. What a truly fucked-up family, with no one taking care of the most vulnerable person, you. I’m so glad you are speaking for that little girl now. She has shown immense courage and in doing so has grown into a magnificent woman 💪❤️

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Esther. I'm so glad I finally realized it. 💞💞

Marjorie Pezzoli's avatar

I read your post within this one…

🫶💪 Glad you are free and victorious

Rea de Miranda's avatar

Thank you, Marjorie! I feel empowered. : )

Maralet Meyer's avatar

You are the strongest person I know 💕